August is clearly my month to say yes to everything. After that, I think I will be a little better about protecting my time because it's getting a little ridiculous and with a full-time job and freelance work way overdue, I just have to try to focus a little. That was my problem this weekend - trying to have fun, which I totally did, but with lots of stress and uncertainty lurking. I'm making headway with those but most days feel on the verge of a complete breakdown, and I guess it's a victory that I just push through. I guess maybe I should've gone to some of those time management seminars, but alas, I didn't. Will post more on BlogHer someday, or maybe not. It's funny because I was in part totally inspired by all the kickass bloggers I met, and also realized how over blogging I sometimes am. Or over this blog, over myself. I am sortof adrift right now and I know it's part because I overcommit, and procrastinate, and in part because I don't trust myself. I'm so petrified to put words down because I think they will suck that I don't, which is wrong, I know, but it's a really hard thing to get over. I am trying to find any way I can to get over this huge hump, to not be the utter failure I've so often let myself be. Too many projects to count, right down the drain, and sure, I've persevered and there are plenty that succeeded, but I'm the type who always remembers the failures. I don't want to be that loser girl I was in 1999 and so many other years, the one who ran away when things were hard, the one who will always lament not having a law degree, and feel inferior because of it. And I know, I know, it's not that I wish I were a lawyer, it's that I wish I hadn't been a quitter. So, onward...cause I have lots of smutty new projects I'm working on, and old ones.
In the meantime, I'm sitting in O'Hare, having forgone wandering around Chicago today (must lessen the baggage situation!) to hang out here in my brand-new, kick-ass Vagina Is For Lovers t-shirt courtesy of Bite My Cookie, just one of the amazing, incredibly women I met this weekend! So without further ado, mark your calendars for August 17th:
So, a party! Go to Sex in the Public Square for any more info you might want.
Join us to celebrate the launch of SexInThePublicSquare.org!
August 17, 7 pm - 10 pm
Sex in the Public Square is dedicated to expanding the space for public discussion of sexuality. Blending the techniques of blogging and social networking (think Blogger meets MySpace), Sex in the Public Square is a space on the Internet where members can explore which parts of sex are private, which parts are public, and what happens when private and public collide. We believe that sexuality is a fundamental component of human life, and that by excluding it from "polite conversation," we lose an important element of democratic participation.
With forums, blogs, reviews, resource lists, calls for action, and a nationwide calendar of events dedicated to sexualities of all genders, colors, and persuasions and with thousands of visitors and new contributors joining each week, we're ready to celebrate our "birth" and we want you to join us!
Help Keep Sex Out Of The Closet!
Readings and performances by:
Rachel Kramer Bussel
Plus screenings of film clips from Cinekink and old sex ed films from Archive.org!
At Rapture Cafe, 200 Avenue A, NYC
The party is free and all are welcome. Invite your friends. And we hope you'll help us support Rapture by enjoying their coffees, teas, and bar offerings.